11/26/2006
Yesterday Cries
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Getting out there
Do you believe in angels?
Do you believe they'll come one day, reveal their presence?
That all of us will see the face of truth one day...?
All the lies exposed...?
Do you believe?
I'm just getting out there.
I'm looking at the world, and wonder why so many can't see.
What scares you from believing?
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10/29/2006
Just another one out there
A mind twisting fanatic charging my mind with electronic pulses, frying my brain.
A wanna'be created and another can-do killed.
We bring the future to the pits of unexistence, to forget what he promised us.
We kill our happiness with laughs created by the pulses of television.
So you walk around, just another one out there, dying to know how to feel good all the time
not wanting to know that it can't be done...
Anything goes...
As long as I'm happy...
Indeed dying...
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Dead-Head
How do you scare yourself away?
How do you make yourself disappear?
Killing myself, slowly with an easy thought...
Kill...
This mind is dead...
This mind is dead...
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10/06/2006
So, here we are
Can you see the others?
Can you hear them?
Look into their eyes, all other people out there, around you.
Look, deep into their eyes.
What do you see?
Another you?
Another me?
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10/03/2006
Två sidor
Jag kan se nånting sämre än det värsta.
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Att säga nåt och visa att du menar det är två skilda saker.
Att höra och tro.
Att se och veta.
Att känna, och vara övertygad.
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Jag hör mer än vad jag ser.
Känner och är skeptisk.
Det är som om en stor mur, min bästa vän den tiden, skiljde mig än från nya tider.
Jag brinner för en framtid jag inte vågat ta emot, bara hoppats på.
Jag längtar efter tiden på andra sidan muren, att komma över, igenom.
För att se mina önskningar gå i uppfyllelse, se mina drömmar bli sanna.
Jag hindrar mig själv, tillsammans med min bästa vän, Muren.
Den svekfulla Muren, kall, grå och hård...
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Att vilja våga / Att våga
Att vilja göra / Att göra
Att vilja / Hoppas
Att vilja / Vilja
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Förlåtelsen...
Bönen som aldrig tystnar...
Hjälpen...
Ropet som aldrig tystnar...
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Fruktan.
Ännu en polare som inte är överrens med din vilja...
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09/30/2006
What makes you want to remember?
What makes you want to remember?
What makes you long for the echoes?
What makes you believe...?
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One another and someone else
Suppose...
...I am this...
...this thing...
..and what's eating your mind up, right behind your eyes..
Can't realize, understand, can't make me do that...
What do you do...?
What makes you do the things you do...?
Who's running you...?
Getting laced by a thought of destruction
...and that's just one of them...
...damn thoughts, never mine...
Never heard their voice?
You're normal aren't you...
Making yourself feel special...
Cry for nothing, laugh at everything.
Flesh, rotten always to remind you,
through it's smell, remind you how close to death you really are...
So why am I making myself feel special...?
Why am I listening to myself?
...
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09/12/2006
Guise
I feel you here, somewhere
But I don't know who you are
I make myself belive I hear you
Cos' I want you
I see you there, in my world
Wondering where you are and how you got there
I say hi...
You turn your face against me and I can't make it out...
Cos' I have no idea who you are
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Minds of you
So we cry, like children
Seeing the bad things, hearing about them, wanting to kill those who hail the bads
We cry for a better world, for the good to be found by them
We can talk, babble on about what changes has to be made, never doing anything
That's a typical characteristic for me
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So why?
Have you heard me ask that before...?
I've asked that so many times we both know that why by heart.
I am someone.
But who?
I am something, but what...and why?
I could take your answers and make them mine...ours.
You promised that, didn't you?
You gave it to me, and said; Here, talk this, think this, belive this...
And what do I do...
Look at the past, listen to the mindtwisters words...
Maybe I should make up my mind abuot what side I stand on.
Maybe I should let it die.
"Maybe" ?
...
I need to feel you.
I have that on my heart.
To feel you.
Close..
Caring..
Just need to know...
And here we go
Walking down the line of mistrust
Hey, Jack...whos' running you?
Just keep running
Just keep running
...keep running...
It'll make it all worse...running.
Shuting your eyes for the true words, the words revealing what's right, who you are.
It'll make it all worse, shuting your eyes, running...
And when the spirit tells you a truth, to try to wake you up...
...you cry...
A pain worse than the old one.
The pain of truth.
The pain fo letting go.
Pain of hangin on.
When your flesh, even your heart, says no...
But there is a yes, somewhere down there, deep inside...
I've heard it
I've felt it
So, here we go
Spiritual roller coaster
Ups' n' downs'...
Funny thing is; you only say whee when you go up...
And the downs' make you believe you've lost it all.
...that you're being tested...?
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Times
It's a time
It's a life
Another one, waiting to be found and cared for
Smell their pain
Feel their flesh
You'll start to know them
And if you start to feel sorry for them, you'll start to feel sorry for yourself
And then you fall in love with them
You'll fall for their pain
Their needs
Their agony
You'll be one of them
So, look behind you
See what you've left
See what you've forgotten
: The good things
The promises
All that's was supposed to be you
So you love the badlands
Love to stroll around there, and feel sorry for yourself
And when the day comes, when the lands will be light
When the surroundings will be revealed
Then you’ll cry
For the things you’ve missed
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Echoes
See the deeds of The Saviour.
See the true actions of a living God.
See me dancing above the just saved people
See me laugh each time you say yes.
Hear me sing a song about you.
Hear me say I love you.
And your wings shall again be spread
to reach the heavens you long for..
..the freedom you cry for..
You shall see new times in your heart.
You shall think new thoughts in your mind.
And what's against you shall fall.
See; a new man rising up, the Spirit rising up.
See; a new life grow to be a great warrior of the holy.
Hear; the songs of the saved.
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09/02/2006
What's it about ?
If I loose my mind, who'll find it?
- - -
Man is not made to know everything.
Still man tries.
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08/02/2006
Further
The better for the worse, not see another time in another universe,
but to see the light of the high skies, further above the clouds.
Not even a manmade scope can see real truth,
not a thing made out of wood, nor steel.
Man tries, fails and cries, just to try again.
So, how about a change in man, in the heart of man?
So, what about another step, not to try but to see with
heart and spirit just the real deal and feel the grace of
the skies and he who sits there further above the clouds?
Once again you fly away, letting it all pour out before
your own heart, to reveal the truth for yourself,
not only for the voices inside. High, further above the clouds,
you fly, to see the real deal.
And another time awaits, a time of grace high above.
The times of peace and regathering of the lost world.
And man shall see and rejoice.
His children shall finally be free to live, really live.
A life, not made up by man, not constructed by thoughts and analyzes,
but by real truth.
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07/29/2006
Man and skies
So these are the clouds of the unseen skies?
Sweeping across the lands of man.
Man, and his destructive, selfish nature.
The clouds forming, creating rain to cleanse the lands.
Man creating shelters.
And man turns against the skies.
The skies turn against unfaithfulness.
Wars between the good and the evil,
and man taking to arms not knowing which side is which.
Man fights, like a defying son with his father...
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06/23/2006
Sweet Illusions
17.6 '06
Sweet Illusions
We loved to go astray
We loved to be like that
We could've been in another time, live another life..
We might've won all the things that mattered..
We loved to wake up and forget
We loved to start the day by fillind up our minds with nothing
Such a sweet breeze of illusions and hopeless dreams with a
nice tune of never-come-true..
Such a great feeling to think you're right and just hit the
spot that brings your friend down..
Just to get that feeling that you're the king the one that's
simply...The One, and make your world perfect in your eyes,
perfect in your heart.. yeah, perfect in your dreams...
So, you migh've stampled down the bald guy that was almost
getting through your titan-sealed gate of your
stone-cold heart.
You felt victory and once again sat on that throne built
by your perversions. You stood up before the weaker, hailed
by the weakest and sucked it all up, the cheers and praise.
And all that in your dreams and illusions.
Sweet illusions.
You never have to accept the truth..
You never have to see right in the eye..
Never have to see you be wrong.
You never have to see you die.
So, what about that day, when it'll all fall?
What about that day when illusion will fall?
When your dreams will fall..
When your throne will fall and the people hate you..
The day you remeber..
The day you see..
The day you'll die..
What about that day?
Of course...You're still in your illusions and dreams.
That day isn't real for you.
I'm so glad I ain't you...
A poor sick twisted mind.
A lost and forgotten.
Look at the light, the truth.
The great and holy.. just look and see with your own eyes!
Just feel the grace, the love and caring arms!
Just try it out..
Please!
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06/12/2006
High , cont'd
...so, I fight the madness inside my mind,
trying to figure out the songs of this world.
I'm being handed a gun and sent into battle without any practise.
The fights and quarrels.
The cries and agony.
The helpless child.
I'm just waiting for the time
Waiting for my wings to grow
So I'd be able to fly, fly high again
To escape the madness
And so he speaks to me;
It's your job, your calling.
Not to be able
Not to want
Not to wish for
Mindstruck actions
Spontaneous reactions of a lost heart
False solutions of a confused mind
I find myself, once again, waiting.
Waiting for something else..
..something new..
..something fresh..
..something that's called Life..
See the deeds of The Saviour.
See the true actions of a living God.
See me dancing above the just saved people
See me laugh each time you say yes.
Hear me sing a song about you.
Hear me say I love you.
And your wings shall again be spread
to reach the heavens you long for..
..the freedom you cry for..
You shall see new times in your heart.
You shall think new thoughts in your mind.
And what's against you shall fall.
See; a new man rising up, the Spirit rising up.
See; a new life grow to be a great warrior of the holy.
Hear; the songs of the saved.
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05/13/2006
Oldies
- 7.1.04 -
Stones are thrown at people who don’t care
Rocks of misery crush their hearts
Mountains of “no-can-do” emerge on their paths
No-people, say that it can’t be done
although it’s already done
No-people think it’s not possible
although it is
No-people say no
although it’s all about yes
Hard times come easy
and it’s easy to be hard
Everything isn’t a piece of cake
Things are, they just are
for some reason
But there are also other reasons
more valuable than all these things that just are
A reason that matters more
A plan, fullfilled, not by man, but by true life
A life that matters
A life that will put a reason to everything
Everything is about something
but some things isn’t about everything
You’ll see, only if you open your eyes
You’ll hear, only if you listen
You’ll feel, only if you accept
You’ll learn, only if you want to
It’s all that simple
I had to choose amongst thousands arrows
each one telling me where to go
I chose the one that made the least noise
cos' I knew that this one was waiting and hoping that I’d choose em’
And this very one showed me the right way
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I couldn’t care less
but I’m about to care
learning as I go
Short n’ simple words to express my heart
That’s all that’s needed
They burst into cries
They solve their problems with problems
Answers questions with questions
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Sometimes I feel like an active volcano
trying to avoid a heat seeking missile
There’s a music in my head
A beating rhythm
The beat pulses my head off
A choir with broken necks
trying to sing me a song
Lost dogs howling to the sun
Broken cymbals cracking my ears
It’s all wrong and out of order
So I start to sing my own song
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Some people
Some people play the blues
Some people play the guitarr
Some people play a game
Some people think
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I made a machine that can do it all for me
I made a machine that can pray
I made a machine that can read the bible
I made a machine that can forgive other people
I made a machine that knows the bible
I made a mistake
Cos’, like other machines, this one also broke
So I had to start it all over again; Learning for my self
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So, what if I’m stumbling?
I’m still on my way
So, what if I cry?
I know it’s all righ
So, what if I make things wrong
I’m still learning to make things right
So, what if I fall
I’ve got someone to catch me
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A rocket seeking heat won’t hit ice
A rock won’t turn itself to sand
A tree won’t turn itself to fire
A sun won’t be a symbol of the day
The moon isn’t made of cheese
Salt won’t turn itself to sugar
A rabbit doesn’t only eat carrots
Some things are obvious
Is there really a source of peace anywhere?
Is the universe really expanding?
Will there be a nuclear war?
When will time end?
When is our Lord coming back?
Some things aren’t
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I had a dream
Actually it was a nightmare
It was about monsters
Creatures from another world
beating people up, innocent people
Killing, destroying, stealing
They weren’t happy, cos’ they had forgotten what joy is
Somebody had stolen their mind
Somehow, I couldn’t feel sorry
Something told me they’d made thier choise
So I made up my mind, and chose life
and woke up
with a peace of mind
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Need for a friend
Why’d you pour your blessings in the sewer?
Why’d you throw away your grace?
Why’d you reject your wisdom?
Why’d you turn your back?
Why did you do all these things, when you knew it was all better?
Honestly, I believe you really don’t know.
Not yet.
I’ve told you I love you.
I’ve told you you’re my friend.
I’ve told you I’m here for you, always.
Do you remember that?
I’ll always have open arms for you.
I’ll always have ears for you.
I’ll always have a heart for you.
Cos’ I’ll always be your friend
and I’ll always consider you as my friend
And in my heart, a brother.
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Some words are meant to be spoken
Some words will never be spoken
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I wait for the day when books will be read
When truth will be reveald
When God’ll say checkmate
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Honest words
Right now I don’t feel for praying
Right now I wanna be comfortable
Right now I feel bad about that
I can hear the prayers of my heart
Honest prayers
Sometimes I have a hard time believing that they are prayers.
But I remember now;
God loves me and knows my heart.
Even better than I do.
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A tiny definition of who God is: 100%
That’s real
True
Good
Holy
Wise
Friendly
Faithful
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I saw a new moon
It was the same night, but a new moon
First I thougt: “maybe the old moon’s turned around, showing it’s back side”
But no, it was a brand new moon
Bright and beautiful as the old one but bigger, warmer
I walked into the night praising the moon
Suddenly I realized who had created the moon and started to praise him instead
I threw my pain away
Killed my sorrow
Destroyed my condemnsion
And didn’t mind my faults
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There are ups’ and downs’
Just like heartbeat
I love the ups’
But I really think I’d manage without the downs’
I wait for my life to flatline
Just for the death of my flesh
Waiting for these filthy needs to go away
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I’ve thought of going away for a while
Don’t know why
Maybe to escape, but what’ll I run from?
Maybe to find some answers, but where are those answers really?
Maybe I’ll just stay here, and deal with reality.
- 15.1.04 –
There wouldn’t be any reason for answers to excist
if there wouldn’t be any questions
Reality is; there are to many unanswered questions,
or maybe there are to many questions.
Or are the questions the wrong ones?
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In my head
Moves an unknown
Wandering around
A question
To be realized by my heart
To be asked
The one that seeks
Will find what is sought
Will wonder about the answer
Will seek again
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Tired of it all
Blessings too far away
Hope so close, but not enough
Faith still alive
---
People shouldn’t always ask: “How are you”
Instead, they should inspect the other persons heart
and start praying for him.
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When people ask me how I am doing
I often have a problem answering them
Cos’ my tounge can only say: “Pretty well I think”
and my heart speaks a different language
It’s like there’d be another world
There inside me
And my mind
Isn’t all that there is
My mind isn’t the only thing holding thoughts
My mind doesn’t hurt
My heart does
So that’s why I can be a happy man in my mind
And sad in my heart
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I’m only asking
Not accepting
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- 1.2. -04 -
We dream of a distant future
Too far away for us to reach
Too immortal for us
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Doing nothing
I’m waiting for nothing
I’m looking for nothing
No longer caring
No longer having any strength
All I can do is walk these roads
and hope that I’ll come across some answers
some of that good life
some of those things in life that makes it worth living
some of that life that we all want
some of that love
What else can I do but hope and wait?
These days I’m only a falling man
I can’t see anything
But I’m not worried
I can’t see that I live that real life
It just doesn’t worry me
Maybe it’ll all change
Maybe not
I think things will change a day
But today, this is my life
These are my ways
Right and wrong
But I’m not worried
For some reason
I just walk
Keep taking those steps
And wait
That’s all I can do
Time will never stop running until it’ll have to
Time is running out
Out of this world
I keep sitting here
There are questions hidden behind these words
About what to do, where to go, how to do what...
I just can’t know
That’s what my heart is yelling out
I just can’t know
I can’t make wonders
I can’t even make a decision without the answers
That’s why I’m standing and not walking
I need the answers
I need the understanding
I need it all to go
I can’t do it
I just can’t
Everybody expecting me to be a powerful man of Christ
But I’m not, and I don’t want to unless I understand what it’s all about, which I don’t...
What is it that expect me to be something I’m not?
Is it me, is it people around me...?
Like I’m not allowed to be what I am; a man, a falling man
I can only wait for the answers
I can’t even search for them unless something is driving me to do that
So, I go to church
I keep waiting
Cos’ whether you believe it or not, that’s all I can do
- 8.2.04 -
This is pain
It’s when you realize that you don’t only feel alone, but you are alone
When you see yourself outside the friendship of brothers and sisters
This is pain
You can’t do anything else but turn off the road, stop the car and cry like a little child
Your heart crying for that love that noone wants to share with you
This is pain
Loneliness
Thoughts of suiccide
Questions about why
Why can’t I be with you all?
I love you all so much, but you don’t let me in
Why?
This is pain
When you start looking somewhere else
When you realize that your friends have made their choise and left you outside
This is pain
My pain
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My heart is a crying one
I have no understanding of love
I see noone loving me as people should
I can’t see myself loving
But I do see myself outside that relationship of brothers and sisters
That is why I cry
And will keep crying until I find love again
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When someone commits suiccide people ask “why?”
I’ve stoped asking that question cos’ I understand why...
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There is no love to be found amongst people who are lost
Sometimes there isn’t even to be found amongst people who have found God
Cos’ we all look into ourselves
Taking, never giving
That’s the source of loneliness
That’s a source of death
Lack of love in peoples hearts
The church getting cold
It’s been written and it happens today
( 15.2.04 )
Behind blue eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool
And If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
And If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
- The Who
Finally I’ve had a taste of that love between brothers and sister
The friendship that never ends
My heart in joy
A sigh of peace
I long back there
I wait til’ the next time
When I’ll meet my family again
When I’ll meet these people of God
- 28.2.04 -
I’m hungry for some love
Like any man should be
I’m looking for the truth
Searching the sky
I’m walking for myself
In a place where you shouldn’t be alone
I’m falling on my knees
Raising my arms and cry
Pouring out my heart
Revealing my deepest secrets
I’m looking too far, for something so near
I’m closing my eyes
To see what’s within me
I’m dancing with my mind
Talking to my self
Asking and answering
I’m falling on my knees
Shouting out the words of my heart
Reaching out for love
I’m playing a song
For my self
Playing hard
Blood on the tips of my fingers
Make me think of another song
A song of my heart
A voice of someone else
Friends of my heart
Love of God
I’m hungry for God
My heart about to explode
I’m praying
So I try looking ahead
See the future that God brings
I pray for will and strength
To take the first step
To pay the first fee
So I’m praying
- 2.3.04 -
When you cross the path of the love of the children
When the breeze of a warm wind touches you
You walk in peace, feeling good
When the heart is speaking from your deep inside
When your tounge starts to speak the words of your heart
When the truth within you is revealed and there’s nowhere to hide
And when, at the same time, you meet the love and grace of your Father
When a touch from the eternal sky blazes
And blessings are being poured over you
You have a taste of freedom
When the King strikes his staff to the ground and shouts, “There shall be love”
When you take his hand and give him your heart
When you obey the calling and accept the invitation
When the angels cheer for you
You have a taste of the truth
- 4.3.04 -
There is a place where you can go
A place where noone makes a difference between black and white
A place where there are no borders between lands and people
There is a place where noone cares where you’re from
There is a place more hidden than your heart
A place where you may go
There is a place where there is peace for heart and people
There is a place where angels excist
A place where the promises are real
A place where truth is more than you’d ever imagine
A place that’s more true than you’d ever imagine
There is this place called heaven
And there is an invitation for you to this place
Cos’ there is a God
And God saw you when you where born
God saw you when you for the first time stood on your feet by your own
God saw you when you cried because of a heartache for the first time
God saw you when you took those bad steps in life which made your life a hell
God sees you every single time you take a breath and counts every beat of your heart
God listens to every whisper of your heart and every cry for help
When your father left the family and broke your heart, God saw you
When your mother gave away your sister and you cried of loneliness, God saw you
When you just knew you where abandoned by everyone, God still stood beside you
When noone’s there to see you, God does
When noone’s there to listen to you, God does
When you’re about to give up, God’ll rise you up
When the shadows become alive, God’ll kill them
When hell becomes real in your life, God’ll show you heaven
When there is darkness, God’ll bring you light
When there’s too much hate, God’ll show you His love
God is reaching out for you and waiting your whole life for an answer
What’s left to be done for you, is answering, choosing, giving up, all before God, and a new life will begin
You’re very welcome, to step into this glory and life full of grace an purpose
And the love of God will strengthen you to keep on going
And you’ll have a new family standing beside you in the battle
You are truly loved
- 7.3.04 -
I’m in a need for an understanding about your love
This scream in my heart, the voice of my longing for all what love is about
I pray that I’d see these things you want for me
I pray that you’d show me how to walk the walk and which turns to make
I simply pray for love and fellowship
Close relationships between brothers and sisters understanding your love
Thank you for today
Thank you for these days you’ve been with me
I pray for more of these days
The days when I’ll be in a desperate search for you
Let them come shortly
Cos’ I need you now
Teach me to search
To pray
To love and care
To be real
To be what you created me to be
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There will be a new time of ignorence
A new time when people shall never realize
They will be their own masters
They will hate those who believe and know the truth
There will be innocent deaths
And these people who don’t want to know the truth,
They shall die
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I can’t bring life to a man who don’t want life.
To whom can a man bring life to?
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Never before had I understood the presence of eternity.
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They think it’s cool
They believe that it’s good for you
Yeah, it might be very fun, calling those unknown spirits
But you may call death upon you
You have no idea what you’re playing with
*
Some people laugh
Some people cry
Some starts up the car
They leave,
this world of ignorence
Some of us are in a big need of anything
Some of us migh consider suicide
When some of us hopes
Some of us start a brand new day
Every day
Some of us ends a beautiful day with a prayer
Some of us end it with a smile
Some of us will never end that day
Some of us makes a cup of tea
Some of us are stuck to the floor
Some of us are running around
Some of us don’t know the walls
Some of us have no roof
Some of us never stop climbing
Some of us never stop falling
*
Sadness
May God put it away
For today
I have a prayer for you
As a young man
As a believer
As a sinner
As only a man
I have a prayer
I see some things you do
I know some things about what you’ve said
I know some things about your love
Some things about your grace
Some things about your Son
I’ve sometimes even heard you speak
At least I think so
I’ve sometimes been there
Right before you
I’ve cried
I’ve laughed
I’ve been mad
I’ve been disappointed
I’ve prayed and felt nothing
I’ve prayed and felt peace
I’ve prayed and felt your love
Today I pray
That I would find your way
That I’d find your peace
That I’d find your love
That I’d find that real close relationship with you
Cos’ there is no better friend than you
No friend with such a great understanding
No other friend with that kind of grace
No friend, with such a great love
And there is no father like you
Noone that great
So today I pray
That I’d see your face
That I’d find you
Where ever I may go
What ever I might do
I know you’ll be there for me
Always
And that I really want to thank you for
*
There’s a way of a thought of nothing
Noone, seeking the dead. No more
A cleancing blood
A life giving it all away
A special gift from anyone
A prayer from a heart
A cry from a lost child
Walking around
A bag of marbles
No soul talking about where to go
There was a gunshot
Somewhere far away
People were walkin’ around in the wet streets
Noone noticing the gunshot
A man
From this world
Couldn’t take it
Noone cared
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There is fear
If there are things you fear, then you have not yet left those things to God
But if fear never would go away, you’d be in hell
So, therefor, that fear will go away
Cos’ you’re on you’re way to heaven
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There was an untold story about some young guys, friends,
Living their lives at a state of self destruction at “T-minus any minute”
Hope, used to be gone
But no more
Now there’s a new time ahead
A time that doesn’t tick
A clock without any purpose to exist
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She thought there are only nice and beautiful ways to walk the walk.
She really believed that.
She died.
*
A kind of a pain I never knew would come
No reason
Just there
A strange feeling of being left behind
I’ve had it before
But this time there’s a taste of something false maybe
Maybe I just miss something
Or someone
Again
Well, I don’t know
But I know it’ll go away
Soon
*
There is
A heart of joy
A heart of peace
A heart of love
A heart of revival
A clean heart
All thanks to our Lord
*
Hope that this will be the land of peace
Not only peaceful. The nature of peace in every heart.
There might be a huge dream.
We never know what’s up ahead if God doesn’t show us.
But we feel it. It’s there. This new time. The time we’re waiting for.
We feel the fire. See the people with the fire. Knowing, it’s God, doing his work in peoples hearts.
Making things new; the nature of our Lord. Raising people. Healing. Transforming lives.
The nature of our Lord.
We love this God for who he is.
So much is possible with him.
He makes life worth living.
There is a revival. Coming up. Near you.
Let’s finish the job! Says the Lord.
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I refuse to candy-coat the Truth of God's Word
as we enter into the final chapters of this world
-Bill Keller
Having an opinion on an issue is fine. The key
however is what is that opinion based on...
-Bill Keller
Rise faith
People with a lost mind say they know
Blind people say they see
They rely on their own thoughts and ideas of a world where everything is allowed without consequenses.
Anything goes, well you’ll take the hit, you’ll burn
Don’t sweat, take a beer, chill
What life is there to be lived?
They burn their hearts, feeling it without realizing/knowing it
They choose a path, the easiest way and live to die
Live life, make it as good for you as you possibly can, they say
Well life or death has just begun
Your time on earth is brief
There is another world waiting where time no longer excists
A world where real lives are lived without any form of suffering
A reality where real death awaits
You choose
You still make the turn, shut your eyes for the truth even when knowing what kind of road it is
You shut your ears for words cried out by God, words of love, come back, there is still a chance
You leave happiness for sorrow, make the turn towards death chewing up your tounge to keep yourself from asking, is there more?
You allow yourself to be frightened for the truth and hide, but truth is closer than you’ve thought and
the truth will remain the truth.
You’re even scared of taking a brief moment and think is it realy possible? What if it is?
What if it’s possible that there is another dimension in this creation
A truth that only can be found when your mind takes a break and you say, yes Lord, take my heart. Change it, open my eyes. And eyes are opened. Eyes you didn’t know were there
A wonderful life where you let yourself die in flesh and rise in spirit, in Holy Spirit
A life where healed hearts, limbs and souls are more than the reality man knows of
Sickness flee when the name of the Lord is spoken and chains brake when the truth is revealed
Now is the time of harvest
For lost souls to come back home to their Father
Now is the time to heal hearts
Now is the time for the church/people of God to take their swords and rise, stand up with the shield of faith and strength of the Lord and start the march through the nations of this world and be bright lights revealing the truth for all people
Rise faith, rise
***
Never before in human history has there been such opportunities
to see the lost won for Christ.
-B.K.
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Everyone lives forever
***
Either you live forever
or you die forever
There is nothing in there between
***
Some people never die
These people love each other
They walk their walk through life
knowing the truth
They live to never die
They work hard to tell other people about the truth
They also have a unique ability to talk with God
They speak about life and death, how big the difference is
They speak about a life and a fellowship where there are no empty hearts
They show the people of the world how empty and lost the world really is
They show a path
A life
They teach the true word of life
They open eyes
And hearts
And more and more people will never die
***
Why?
Ask yourself why
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There is a dream that has never been told to any man of the world
A dream that won’t stop
A sleep that won’t end in the morning
A dream that never tells you to wake up
A dream that never opens eyes
It won’t scare you or do anything that might wake you up
It want’s you to sleep
This dream would be useless if there wouldn’t be anyone sleeping
But there is
There is alot of sleep
No pills can keep this dream away from the sleep
But now there is a truth
A truth that can’t be denied
A truth that wakes people up
A truth that keeps people awake
better than any caffeine
This dream is the illusion of the world
Created by evil
Forced through poeples minds
Lies
More lies
Lies that will never rest until God puts an end on it
But there is truth, which we know
And we’ve got God
***
They run out of food
They run out of wood
They run out of fuel
Unable to eat
Unable to go anywhere
The blessing you once experienced through your ways of life weren’t really blessings
As you see now
You lived a wonderful life
Had a wife that loved you
Children that respected you
Even a dog, a kind one, greeting everybody happily with a propelling tail
You had a good job
Two expensive cars
Suddenly something happened
Your dog got run over by a truck
Your wife left you
One of your children died in a serious sickness
All the blessing disappeard
All the fine things in life got bad
All good got evil
All beautiful got ugly
Life for you was over
Your blessings weren’t really blessings
They were lies
All lies
What’s left is nothing
No hope
No future
No truth to hang on to
No path to follow
No light to help you see
Your life is over
So why won’t you die?
Die, and rise up again
Rise up in spirit
Rise and win your life back
Rise and start running for the goal
Rise and follow the light
Rise and see the hope
Cos’ there is a light over all darkness
There is a hope that lasts
A future more than worth fighting for
A truth more true than your mind can imagine
A family bigger than any family in the world
Win your life back
Your wife
Your children
Your job
Cos’ there is a Lord over all lords
A saviour that works day and night for your salvation
A love deeper than any galaxy in the universe
The Lord is a true, living God
A life beyond life
A world beyond the world
And an eternal party waiting for you
If I could turn back time
Then I’d change alot of things in my life
All the things I’ve done wrong
All the bad things I’ve said
Every bad thought
I’d change alot of things
That’s how I once thought
Today I thank God
Because, even if I could turn back time,
It would be impossible to do all things right
And today I know this:
God changed my life 2000 years ago
He changed alot of things
All the things I’ve done wrong
All the bad things I’ve said
Every bad thought
He changed alot of things
2000 years ago
Solution
There is something that soon will go away for a while
Something that a heart is bound to
Something that never meant to happen
But did
Feelings
These will come back over and over again
Til’ there’s peace
But there is prayer
And a God that answers prayers
So, that’s why I’ll come along
I’ll get over it perhaps
I’ll see a new day
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Running man
I’m only learning
I fall and hurt myself
I get up
Praying for you to teach me to run
I know I want to
I know you want me to run
Run with all my strength
For a goal that I’ll never reach during my days on earth
For a life never known or seen by mankind
I want to be a running man
I want to run a lifelong race
With all my strength
All my power
I’m still learning
Falling, hurting myself
But I’ll always get up
Becoming a running man
Familiar
I’ve been here before
I know it
I’ve seen you before
I’ve heard you speak
Seen you work
Felt your presence
I know it
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I’ve been here before
Walked this path
It’s a hell
It never rains
Never blows
It’s a path of a never ending dry period
A path of chaos
I’ve been here before
I know it
I’ve heard this madman before
Speaking about a place
Dark and eternal
But I stopped caring about him
I’ve seen these streets before
-
I’ve laughed this laugh before
Cried this cry
Spoke this word
It’s been written already
For me
A path that noone cleaned up
A trashcan that’s never too full
I’ve seen that before
-
I’ve started a new life before
This same new life
Over and over again
Cos’ there is always a new chance
-
I’ve seen you
The guy that speaks about everything
The teacher that never takes a break
A man of miracles
I’ve heard you teach
Talking about something called truth
Something called love
Something called “get a life”
I’ve felt you
Inside me
Around me
Loving me
You’re God aren’t you?
Don’t kill the dog if you’ve got children
They’ll hate ya’
Never get a cat if you love birds
The birds’ll hate ya’
You can avoid some things from hating you
Like your friends
You make yourself good for your friends
Your family
You don’t want them to hate you, do you?
But you avoid God
Because He loves you
Don’t you know He’s family?
He’s your father
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You once knew Him
Walked the walk
But you don’t do it any more
Why?
What’s the problem?
He’s waiting
For you
We’re running out of time
Don’t be in a hurry
But don’t look away
Don’t close your eyes
See, listen
The truth is all around you
God is calling
Look around and see
A truth to remember:
Jesus loves you!
Sin
It is one thing to know it’s coming
It’s one thing to see it
One thing to know the consequenses
It’s one thing to feel it, try it
It’s one thing realizing you’re hooked
One thing to start fighting against it
One thing to fall
And it’s one thing to know that it’s too late
So you throw it away
Just to start over again
We had to start over
There was no other way
Remorse
I knew that it would end this way
Still I didn’t care
And I died
I had to start that prayer over again
A prayer about God giving me another chance
A cry for help and this new life
So this voice started to shout
Again;
Rise!
But still there is remorse
A wound that’s still bleeding
A broken leg hurting
So I pray for forgiveness
It’s not easy even if I really want to pray
So many wounds
Still open
allowing the devil to pour salt in them
So, forgive me Father
And heal me
Story
I’ve seen this picture before
That’s me isn’t it?
And that’s my life.
I really hated myself there didn’t I?
So much pain. Where did it go?
Did you do something?
I remember that. I died that day.
I’ve died alot of days.
Perhaps I’ll never stop dying.
I never thought that I had to die to live. It’s wierd, isn’t it?
What did you do?
What did I do?
It’s all so different
Can’t put my finger on it
Look, there I am again, falling.
How did I survive that fall?
I know you were there, but I can’t remember what happened.
Sometimes I climb, sometimes I fall.
How come I fall more often than I climb?
Is it me?
What did I do?
I’ve falled all these times, but I’m still alive!
How did you do that?
What about today?
I ask you to catch me,
To forgive me,
To heal me.
Cos’ I want to live for you.
I want to live your life.
That life you gave me.
Cos’ I love you, God.
Lost and lonely
I walk on these seemingly endless fields
Miles of walks destroying the crop
There’s no horizon
No star to follow
Only a gazing sun at the top of my head
This goes on
--
Drops of peace
It’s a journey
My journey
Walking barefoot on cold sharp rock in a bad weather
Cold wind turning my skin to ice
--
I’ve got beaten up
Bad
I’m hurt and alone in a dark cold place
Knowing nothing but pain
Seeing nothing but darkness
Feeling nothing but this barbed wire wrapped around my heart
This pain
--
But drops of peace fall on my head
They help me hope
Whispering in my ears about hanging on
--
I keep walking
Hoping that this journey will come to an end
--
Darkman coming
I’m walking in this garden called world
Hearing the darkman wander around
Steps coming closer
I’m afraid of him sometimes
He sometimes just emerge from nowhere
Making me loving the bad things
Twisting my mind his way
Forcing me to believe in lies
But I’m starting to understand now
Not just in my head, but also in my heart
Understand that I’m the one that makes the choise
So, sometimes I’m ready
Waiting for the darkman to come again
With his perverse ways of thought
Cos’ there are strings of peace from the other side
I just keep walking
Walking the path
Walking home
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These days I think alot
Too much
I wonder about everything
Knowing nothing
My own thoughts scare me sometimes
But still my imagination scare me more
Knowing the truth scares me sometimes
But there is no fear in God
No fear when you’re close to Him
It is so simple
So simple we just can’t accept it
We have to make it all complex
Make up theories
Using logic
And we fail to find all that’s true
Losing our faith
So my own mind betrays me
But I’ve got a spirit
Leading me
Helping me
--
I was back in these cold wet streets
Driving around
Seeking the right way
Somewhere I got lost again
And I was back on the narrow streets of the mindtwister
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I’ve been blessed with truth
I’ve been cursed with lies
I’ve heard beautiful words
And terrifying screams
I’ve been touched by rain and fire
Both water and lava has been poured over my head
I’ve been touched by good strength
And I’ve been electrified
I’ve felt joy and sadness
Peace and suffering
I’ve got wounded
I’ve got healed
I’ve been poor
And I’ve been rich
I’ve been a child
I’ve been helpless
I’ve been right
And I’ve been wrong
I’ve seen just
I’ve seen unjustice
I’ve been broken
And got repaired
I’ve had good laughs and bad laughs
I’ve cried good cries and bad cries
I’ve been alot of things and still will be, as I continue this jorney to heaven.
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Sometimes this black dog attacks me
Starts chewing on my heart
I struggle and fight
All in vain
I give up
And suddenly the dog leaves
And I get up again
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High - ( premier words )
Sometimes flying high, seeing the world beneath you.
Looking down at the cities seeing the people and all their deeds.
All the evil, the death and destruction.
Another breakthrough of lies keeping them dead.
And so I fly higher, just to escape the madness.
Just to feel free for a moment.
...but I always end up falling.
Falling back to my world, my place to be..
..the place where I'm supposed to be..
..cleaning up the mess..
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Why do we fear the world?
It's a sinking ship, doomed to destruction.
It'll all end soon.
Why do we fear this life?
It's all about the next.
It's all about the next world.
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You and your friends are all invited to this party.
Why is it so hard to convince your friends that it's the best party ever?
No alcohol, no drugs, but still everyone are constantly high..
..high on love.
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Now we create spiritual stairs and elevators to get to the Highsky.
But everything breaks at some point.
Thinking and analyzing ourselves to death.
Noone realizes that we need to fall, fall up...
..but that's just not a logical thought is it?
Who said logic is the way?
Who said we can trust our senses?
Who said we can trust our minds?
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